Karaoke

My friend tells me all of the time that I have to stop being so hard. She says that I need to express my emotions more, that it’s ok to cry.  I retort that vulnerable is not my color. We were talking about a guy that I am currently mooning over. We’ll call him Aaron.  I like him but I’m not sure what to do with him.  Classic story; girl meets boy, they become friends, then they venture off into not so platonic territory. Not smart. I know. I thought I had on my big girl panties and could handle it. I. Can. Not. I tell him that if we continue, it will be difficult to keep any potential feelings at bay. If I enjoy hanging out and talking to you and we’ve added coitus to the mix, why wouldn't I think about pursuing something with you? I don't do well with not knowing exactly where I stand with people. The sad part is that I rarely admit these thoughts , even to myself. Instead I am content to carry on with my daily existence as if I am not losing an internal battle. I wish I could wash the memory of him away with my makeup at the end of the day. I wish I didn't sit and fantasize about how things could be in between bites of my lunch. I wish I didn't turn to him even in my slumber because his arms and warmth make everything better for now.

Sunset sunset

Another day, another set of beach pics.  Are ya'll tired of seeing me in my bathing suit yet?  Well my everyday outfits have not been that exciting, they mainly consist of shorts and camisoles.  Beach days are a nice reprieve, I get to frolic in the sun for a little bit but I am always beat after coming from the beach.

goat shish kabob

lobster & fried plantains; I don't really eat shellfish but I figured I would give grilled lobster a shot, the flavor was really good but I'm still not a fan of shellfish.  I don't really like the texture or the flavor of the meat.  Give me chicken, goat, fish or beef.

all that is missing is mr. maimusings

Bikini: Wet Seal; Dress: Express

But Ricky!

Hope all of you ladies and gents are doing well..  I went to the beach twice last week.  Although I was feeling bloated , I still wanted to enjoy the beach so I opted for my polka dot one piece  I love this bathing suit.  I think it is so retro, it reminds me of a dress that Lucy used to wear in I Love Lucy.

Life Force

Regular old day, I think I just went walking around town.  I wanted to explore my town, I didn't get to see as much as I would have liked to, but it was still nice to be out and about.  Doing a bit of color blocking, these colors just make me think of life. Green: Plants, Yellow: Sun and Blue: Water.

Top & Flats: Old Navy; Shorts: F21

Life's A Beach

I finally made it to the beach!!  Last Sunday, I got a much deserved beach break with my fam.  We (my sister, bro and cousin) got to frolic in the water and have fun in the sun.  I need to make some friends so I can have an adult beach trip.  Adult beverages included.

The water was way too sandy, but it was still a nice reprieve from my daily duties.  I bought a beach wig. It's big and curly, wait till y'all see it!

T Shirt kind of Day

Hi hi hi!
I went to watch a local soccer match last Friday (Aug 27th), and I just threw on some denim shorts and a t shirt, which if you have been following my blog for even a week, you would notice that is not a norm for me.  I've been really hot (which is to be expected in Haiti) and I wasn't going far, so my extra casual outfit would have to suffice.

Last Supper

Hope everyone's doing well!  Here are some pics from my last evening in the States.  I hung out with some girlfriends and we had our usual girl talk which consisted of men, men and some more men.  You know cuz we're philosophical like that.  There is a shopping plaza not to far from where three of us live that has really neat restaurants and cool shops.  I've been to almost all of them, but there was one, the Yard House that I never seemed to be able to make it to.  There always seems to be a long wait.  Well today was our special day, because there was a table available and it was patio seating (my fave in the summer & spring).  My outfit was nothing to write home about, because my "good clothes" were all packed up, but enjoy the shots of me and the homies.